Friday, November 17, 2023

Dead Person

1. Seeing puts you in relation to other human beings. It's hard to be in relation to others when you have your eyes closed. It's hard to see when you're only listening. It's impossible to see when you're judging. 

2. Let seeing serve you. Be served by seeing, like a meal you would serve to a friend. When we see, we depend for existence on each other. If not x, then not me. If x, then me. 

3. None of us can do it. Mutual commitment. Endless task.

4. When we walk there's no need to turn your fucking head because your field of view is constantly moving. 

5. Relax your mouth, take the cadence of a normal conversation, and speak fake words without sounding like you're speaking a foreign language. Loosen language. Deconstruct back-of-throat. 

6. Time is in my hands. I'm not ruled by time. I get to use it as I wish. When there's no music, we must be so smart about how we use time so we don't get caught in it. Time and my timing is my music. 

7. Sensation comes from seeing. 

8. A celebratory feeling senses my body I feel alignment underneath these fingernail cells round two gets a ten I didn't ask about round 2 was all surface and no-content yes-membrane clean glass for skin white button-down smelling like a Bushwick laundromat I once patronized you thought the dead body on the street beneath the sheet was me and you were so relieved when I walked in the door you felt a feeling caused by an uncertain belief a hypothesized reality the tragic and possible inevitability that makes us all the same much like the way I wonder around through you and in this movement I feel love and mystery and seeing I love to dance and sing and learn with you I wonder how much about me you already know I wonder how much of me I will learn through you I will never know how much of us travels through a you-caused-by-me, a me-caused-by-you

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