Seed

1. I have to devise a way to keep myself interested in being here. You look so beautiful in this light. Thank you. I turn my fucking head to avoid getting attached to what I think I'm doing.

2. I made a seven-part dance that represented my development into the beautiful whirling dervish my dad told me about when I was young. A poet and a whirling dervish. What's a profession or vocation to a meteorological phenomena, an unexplainable event. I didn't want to represent anything in that moldy gym; I wanted the old lady's vibrational acceptance of the emptiness in the room. 

3. Outside of emptiness I think of what to say. A difficult conversation awaits me and I don't want to make the same mistakes. I wonder how we know what we want. I wonder about this. 

4. A beautiful sensation. A sensate knowing. A sensational to-do list. A sense of future in this moment. And this one. 

5. I hope we make the piece that needs to be made. No, we will make the piece that demands to be made. I already love it and you.