I often think people have been doing exactly what they’re doing forever.
I mean, I often assume people have been doing exactly what they’ve been doing for a long time.
At one point the best side of my face became the other side of my face. It happened so quickly, almost beneath the speed of observation; however, given my training, I noticed as soon as I woke up. Yes, one of my eyes had become a different shape, the lid acquiring a new collection of folds, throwing into question everything I thought was true about the symmetry of my face and the requisite actions for looking beautiful in two-dimensional images. I am still readjusting to my new reality.
People tell me I’m perfect for this role. When they say this, I have no idea what they’re talking about. I liked a bunch of Agnès B listings on Ebay and woke up to a flurry of offers from various sellers. Why would I pay $170 for an Agnès B Louise Bourgeois collaboration artist T-shirt? I know why. I wanted to buy a book valued at $900 because in my mind it was priced at $30 and maybe the bookseller would give me a discount. People tell me I’m a good fit for this role.
Shelley tells me there is no know, only knew. I think of availability and then simplicity, or is it the other way around?