Time is a Natural Disaster

 1.

Standing up is very close to falling down. Up is just a certain kind of down.

2. 

So the title comes backward in time. Like video of a melting ice cube played in reverse. A shower made of falling. A self-annihilating character. 

3. 

"There's no fictions in it."

4. 

I'm standing in a hallway

I'm standing in a hallway looking out a windowed door

I'm standing in a hallway looking out a windowed door you're approaching 

I'm standing in a hallway looking out a windowed door you're approaching with a letter

5.

Lay bare the laying bare of it all

The flattening landscapes of it all

The into my eyes of it all

The winnowing pages that make up a life of it all

The modern dance of it all

The modern dancers of it all

6. 

––I just want to swim in the brook.

––You're so wild.

––If that makes me wild, then I just want to swim in the brook and I'm so wild.

7.

There's nothing wrong, there's just this moment. Even your thinking of something wrong is just this moment. This moment is all wrong and just this moment. This moment just this all wrongness and nothing wrongness is just this moment. There is always a house for it as long as you are alive. Thinking of time and you in it and all the alacrity and routs of the day is just this moment. This moment is a house made for using. 

8.

What makes this reality this reality? 

How am I opening my eyes to it every time?

9. 

I am here due to the kindness of so many.

That man who handed me paper towels at the club also handed me my life. This moment.

The fact of that old woman wearing a t-shirt with "God Belongs in My City" is the reason I exist. Everyone else is. 

10.

I think we all just want to feel sometimes like we're doing something we're not supposed to. 

11.

Growing cold you're growing cold

What do I want for my birthday you ask?

I want a world where I can look back at myself like watching video of a melting ice cube, played in reverse. 

12. 

The character I play when everything is not okay. Burgling and shaking and erupting and texting.

13.

I'm not in therapy for this. Repeat until it loses meaning.